You seem a little late to turn around and start something again. Understanding your mistakes late will not provide a softening in the short term.
You have relationship problems in your business life. You don't seem to want to endure these relationships any more. It should not hurt your hope that there will be no response from your job applications. Your face may be laughing soon.
You are fascinated by the installment. You may have a money notice soon. Many of the things you get in and out of big debt are unnecessary. You need to cut spending a little more.
It would be useful to file your hypersensitivity a little bit recently. You are an emotional person, but approaching some events emotionally can cause troubles. You experience this frequently.