You want to make sure you are loved. You seem to be unaware that your lover tells his friends how he loves you every day. You will have to take care of your insecurity within yourself.
You have an important phone towards the evening. Solidarity with a colleague creates an enjoyable work environment and is a good example for other colleagues.
You should be able to live a little more costly. Minimizing your monetary complaints goes through leaving your easy spending habit. Your issue will get a debt solution.
The new thoughts in your mind don't seem like fantasy at all. But you may be missing a detail. First, you may have to accept it and fight it.