I think he's looking for the incoming. But when you left you were prepared for the feeling of regret. You cannot get rid of this feeling on your own. Your new relationship seems very inadequate in this regard.
You should not waste hopes attached to you. You are trying to transfer a job that you can easily overcome to someone else who can be crushed under the job for the sake of proving something.
It seems that your right to use your money is not entirely in your hands. But you are not complaining. You justify this intervention. In short, you seem to intend to remain a prodigal person.
You have to tidy up your love life. You should switch from three unhappy human relationships to two happy human relationships as soon as possible.