You are moving away from your purpose with your persistent behavior. The attraction you get may need time. Your intention to keep your emotions secret prevents you from getting more analytical methods.
The timing error can lead to the belief that you are presenting an ordinary project. You have to make a very good timing in order to put your thought that you define as great on the discussion table.
You should reduce spending further. It makes it difficult for you to define the causes you suffer as the inevitable needs of life. A locked up money issue will be resolved soon.
Your relative, whom you trust mutually, thinks that your behavior is an effort to get rid of some responsibilities and it cannot suit you.